SHORT STORY: If Only You Knew - PART 13

James

I was trying my best not to have to open the present from Laila. Dealing with her, I knew it could be anything in that box. She keeps playing games with me, but I’m about to start pulling out the big guns for her ass. I’m about to have my girl stunting on this hoe so I can shut her down once and for all. If she doesn’t know where my heart lies, she will learn today. The positive pregnancy test was for Shon so why would Laila claim that it was from her? It took me a minute to process the news, mainly because I was confused as hell. Was this another game that Laila was playing? Or was Laila really pregnant also? Ugh! This shit is ridiculous.

Three months later…

For the most part, I have managed to get things back on track with Shon. I still have some work to do. I’m not tripping though because I can’t imagine my life without her. I can’t shake the feeling that there is still something very cold about Shon that I didn’t always see. I want to believe that it’s nothing. I’ve been bending over backwards to get back in Shon’s good graces.  We’ve even taken steps towards moving in together. I mean, she still has her old spot and promised me that she would let it go once we were married. However, her and the boys are at the house with me practically every day. To put an extra stamp on it, I converted one of the spare bedrooms into an office space so in the event that I have extremely tight deadlines at work, I can put the extra hours in at home. I’ve been on my grown man shit for real. I’ve been 100 percent honest and faithful to Shon for the last three months. Hell, I’m too scared to even watch porn just in case she tries to flip the script on me. Shon is four months pregnant with our child and I do not need her getting stressed out and upset over nothing.

It had to be somewhere around 7 o’ clock at night when we sat down for dinner. Shon cooked which she hadn’t done much the last couple months due to morning sickness that lasted all day. She was taking it like a gee though because she didn’t let it stop her money. She still went to work every day and slayed hair.

“What’s on your mind beautiful?” I asked while admiring this new glow she had going on.

“Nothing in particular. Just thinking about a lot of different things.” She responded.

“We can talk about it later.” She continued.

After dinner, Shon and I laid down for some pillow talk. We’ve been doing that a lot lately and it has seemed to be helping our relationship. We talk about each other’s day and what we had going on for the week. This grown man shit wasn’t half bad. Not to mention the fact that Shon has been extra freaky lately. The moves that she has been putting on me lately have been mind-blowing. It’s as if Laila pulled her to the side and gave her some private lessons. Either way it goes, I was enjoying life. My boys were happy. My girl was happy. I wasn’t having any drama out of Laila so I was happy especially knowing that it was just one baby one the way. I would have assumed if Laila was really pregnant, she would have been put that all in me and Shon’s face. Between the night that I almost got busted fucking around and the pregnancy test that I thought was for Laila, I was doing any and everything I could to keep a smile on Shon’s face.

Though she never asked, I set up trust funds for the boys so that their college education would be taken care of. I made Shon the sole guardian over the trust fund. I even opened a business account for Shon at the bank and deposited $250,000. She asked if I wanted to be listed on the account and I told her know. It was all hers. I know people must think that I am losing my mind signing over all this money before we are married, but I trust Shon. I know she will do the right things with the money. Guilt ways heavy on a n***a so I had my own motive also. I would have given her that and more during our marriage so why not do some of it now. I was really doing it to ease my own guilty conscience.

Shon hasn’t been as gung-ho about planning the wedding lately. It must be the baby causing her to be moody. Hopefully, in the next month or so we will be full speed ahead in the wedding planning stages. In the meantime, we are preparing for our engagement party tomorrow. Yes, blame it on my work schedule. I realized a couple months ago that we never have an actual engagement party so I wanted to bring our families together and let them share in our bliss. Shon fought hard against us having an engagement party. I wonder why?